9.28.2008

sunday.

so I'm missing church this morning. I'm pretty bummed.

Granted, it was nice to sleep in, but I feel like I haven't been a very good kid lately, and kinda wish I could be there. Not that going makes me a good kid, but that when I go, I feel like I'm wrapped up in God, more-so than in everyday life.

Ohhhh welll. God is here with me, and I can spend time with Him alone, too.

I think I'm depressed. I've been pretty bummed lately about everything: school, friends, God. I really think it ties into physical fitness, but the more I say that, the less I do. Just talking about it seems to deenergize me. oh wait, i had no energy or will in the first place.

In my search for grace, i've lost sight of self-discipline. I would like to find it, but for some reason I don't want to have to try too hard. I have good friends i no longer spend time with, and i have a mentee that i haven't met, and don't know if i'm the best influence for her right now because i'm so scattered.

Oh well. I suppose that is my update.