updates of sorts.

i didn't want that last post to be the first one you saw when you got to my blog. that's kinda depressing.

found a new artist i like. kina grannis. check her out : www.kinagrannis.com.

got a new book. actually, i accidentally bought the book on cd, so i'm going to listen to it and see if i really should just get the book, book. but it's called "jesus wants to save christians" and it's by rob bell. you can borrow the cds, if you like. i've already loaded them onto my iPod. just drop me a line.

Going out to the Habitat for Humanity site today to check and see what all they've done. i don't really know how this semester is going to work out timewise...

and my apartment is ungodly dirty. if cleanliness is next to godliness, i'm going to hell. i like the real God better than the one we make up.

That's just a little bit of an update from yours truly. Hope that all is going well for you!

love, me.


this morning, i decided.

i decided that i'm unhappy.
i've decided that i'm unhappy because i don't want to be an engineer,
and i've been lying to myself for the past three years,
saying it's going to be okay,
and you'll do what you want later.
But i'm miserable, now.
Why get a degree,
waste four years doing stuff you hate, four years that move by sluggishly and painfully,
when you could be doing stuff you love,
with people you love,
having connections,
being creative,
playing music,
and the time could fly by,
and things could make sense.

I just want to do something I know I was made to do.
Something I love doing.
Something that drives me, and I am drawn to.

So I don't know where I'm going from here.

I'm open to suggestions and ideas,
I'm open to hopes and dreams.

I will not sit back and pretend that just because I have a degree, I'm happy.

Because I'm not. Money and position and knowledge will not make me happy.

I want to do what the Maker instilled in me.
Those things that make me tick.


The things that I didn't do because of money
or time
or convenience.

I want to do more.
love more.
laugh more.

Yea, it's a tall order.

But i think it's achievable.

I may not be rich,
I may not be successful,
heck, I may not even have all of my needs, much less my wants, met.

But i think I'll be happier than this fake idea of completion I'm pursuing now.


More STOPing.



the art of worship

that's the title of the section i read today.

it was based off of the verses in Psalm 89:14-18. I read, and my heart was glad. May it lift up yours, as well.

"Happy are the people who know how to praise you. Lord, let them live in the light of your presence. In your name they rejoice and continually praise your goodness. You are their glorious strength, and in your kindness you honor our king. Our king, our shield, belongs to the Lord, to the Holy One of Israel."


and a slow release of air from the lungs.

"you're racist."

"you're a fascist."

"you're sad that you've lost your white power and privilege. "

"you just want the easy way out. "

"i'm glad he isn't our president anymore. we should have shot him on his way out of office"

"he messed up his oath. he must not really love America."

"the conservative judge messed up his oath. he is our hope for a better America."




We have an African American president, and it's a beautiful picture of grace, growth, and diversity.

I don't know what all Obama is going to do. It's going to be liberal. It's going to be big.

I don't know if I'm going to agree with everything.

But I do know this:

We will never find a Savior on Capitol Hill, and the only one who can serve as our Savior loves all of His creation and causes it to rain on both the righteous and the wrong. and He sits, watching us, providing for us, loving us and helping us regardless of our merit, waiting for us to return His love.

The Love of God is what makes this world spin, and when we refuse to live in the light of that Love, extending it to others, it pains His heart, and causes trouble for us all.

May we live in love. Not passive apathy or self-righteous indignation, but firm, concerned, love with society's good at the end.

Ahhh. Please stop pointing fingers and calling names, else these next four years are going to be awful.




Mercer Recycles.

For the MU EcoReps program.


the rainbow connection

why are there so many songs about rainbows
and what's on the other side?
rainbows are visions, but only illusions
and rainbows have nothing to hide...
so we've been told and some choose to believe it
i know the wrong way to see...

someday, we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
the lovers, the dreamers, and me.

who said that every wish would be heard and answered,
and wished on a morning star?
somebody thought of that,
and someone believed him...
look what it's done so far.
what's so amazing it keeps us stargazing?
what do we think we might see?

someday, we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
the lovers, the dreamers, and me.

have you been half-asleep,
and have you heard voices?
i've heard them calling my name.
are these the sweet sounds that called to young sailors?
i think they're one and the same.
i've heard it too many times to ignore it,
i think there's something i'm supposed to be...

someday, we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
the lovers, the dreamers, and me.

someday, we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
the lovers, the dreamers, and me.

if you don't remember this, you're either too young to remember the awesome that is Jim Henson and the Muppet Movie, or you're so old that you don't remember anything anyways.

but we can all use a refresher. thanks, mr. Henson.


Sex Trafficking

...and the stopping of it.

I am not an authority on the subject, but I just wanted to encourage you to investigate it.

Sex Trafficking...the buying and selling of men, but mostly women and children, is a common and fast-growing business.

Pimps buy and sell the bodies of women and children who are looking for better lives, but instead their lives are converted into a living hell for the pleasure of "johns" and the pimp's pocketbook.

Mercer University is sponsoring a conference on it in March: the 19th and 20th. I've had the pleasure of helping some of the stuff get off the ground.

Slavery is two times as large in current times than it was during the Trans-Atlantic slave trade era.


Please consider this.

It's in Amsterdam. It's in Atlanta. It's in MACON, GEORGIA.

Don't close your eyes.

For more information on stopping sex slavery, check out www.stopsexslavery.org

For more information on the conference in March, check out www.mercer.edu/stop


Myers-Briggs Type Indicator.

ENFP - Extroversion, Intuition, Feeling, Perceiving

If you want to know more about me, here you go...we took these as a part of our Res-Life job. If you don't want to hear anything about me, check out Brian Fellows. Either way, have a great day!

"Warmly enthusiastic, high-spirited, ingenious, imaginative. Able to do almost anything that interests them. Quick with a solution for any difficulty and ready to help anyone with a problem. Often rely on their ability to improvise instead of preparing in advance. Can usually find compelling reasons for whatever they want."

Choosing a Major:
- May declare many majors until one captures their imagination
- Tend to be happy in majors or careers where they can initiate new ideas that others will implement
- Found frequently in counseling, teaching, the arts, journalism, advertising, sales. (this is the main reason why I put this up here...I have always felt like I was in the wrong field. LOL!)

Learning Style:
- Material must stimulate their imagination
- Impulsive energy may lead them to get involved in one project after another, sometimes not finishing them.
- Enjoy complexity and abstractions.
- Express themselves well, especially spontaneously
- Like variety in classes, subjects, majors, and tests.

Reading, Writing, Studying:
- Dislike uninspired routine and may avoid necessary details.
- Like to study in groups, but sometimes find that nothing gets done
- May read anything, tend to have piles of books and magazines aroudn.
- Write quickly when inspired, dashing off a first draft after "talking out" the paper
- Must push themselves to rewrite a second or later draft, and usually benefit from editing the first one for organization, missing logic, and data.

- Usually involved in campus social life
- Like floormates to gather together for impromptu games or discussions, even at exam time.
- Report they have no trouble dating once a week or more
- Motto might be "Work must be fun"

Possible Causes of Stress:
- May like to test the limits of college rules--and sometimes push too far
- Among college females, tend to be the most assertive of the types
- May "burn out" or develop physical problems because of trying to do it all
- May not finish projects if they don't care enough about the topic
- May say "yes" to anything interesting with little sense of priority

Dealing with Stress
- Naturally good at getting things done at the last minute with a burst of energy
- Natural versatility and openness to change helps reduce stress
- Must find some time to be along
- Learn to set priorities and say "no" to some requests
- Need to pay attention to physical needs


more words

thank you for your comments, friends.

it really helped me understand a little bit better.

the words aren't important because they initiate Truth,
but rather, since Truth is already there, the words help us gain an understanding of it's depth.

i have a bad habit of making things "either, or", when they're "both, and".

i suppose it's the human condition :)

thanks again.

and speaking of words, if you haven't checked out the Free Rice website in the past few months (or ever...) visit this link! Not only do can you learn vocabulary, like the traditional Free Rice website, but you can now also learn artwork, basic math, chemistry, and foreign languages!

Extended Logo...finishing touches?

For you, Jordann :)



at the beginning of band practice today, greg read some scripture...it was from where JC tells the jews, "well, yes, i am the son of God", and they totally freak, yet again. the passage is john 10:22-42.

i haven't been reading the Bible very regularly, and so i'm a probably not a very good person to talk about the sanctity and purity of the Word through the years...

but greg mentioned something that i don't necessarily question, but rather, it intrigues me, so i thought i would present it to you.

he said this: the word the Jesus used for "I am" is the same and the word they used in the septuagint for God's declaration "I am" to Moses and to Abraham.

and it just made me wonder...

what makes words and their origins so powerful?

what makes us go, "wow" when we see correllations in etymology?

isn't that just a mechanic of man?

i understand the scribes were careful in their choosing of words, and there was divine inspiration, but in the end, it's still a word, and there is truth behind the word that we have to find.

it's not about the text, it's about the context, too, isn't it? it's about the journey in the truth of the entire passage, not just the merit of the words on their own...

my Bible teacher at Mercer once said, "text without context is pretext"

and greg addressed the taking of phrases or words, on the one hand stating that this passage is often where jehovah's witnesses say something that christian-christians (evangelicals? i don't know the correct terminology there, it isn't meant for offense) don't agree with. [and i don't even remember what greg mentioned it was...], but then he took one word and was like, whoa, cool!

and i'm not trying to pick on him, but a lot of times it feels like us christian-christians and us jehovah-witness-christians and us pro-life-christians and us pro-choice-christians pick and choose what we think is the word. the good word. the Word.

God said yes, war, and no, abortion.
God said no, war, and yes, abortion.

When will we see the real issue behind the words?
i am guilty, too.
i do not see because, although i have eyes, i do not look

our taking of the text that we percieve to be God's word without examining it fully and being fully open and asking Him to speak to us is nothing short of pretext, isn't it?

i'm not saying we're hopeless. i'm not saying we're dumb or bad.

i just wonder. i wonder why we think God can only speak through the King James or why the Koran is only okay in Aramic. even in modern day, understanding words in their original language still ignores the context of the time it was written.

listening to the heart of the passage, and listening to the writer...

...as he sat up at night,
drawing the words out by the light of a candle,
hearing the wind rush through the windows of his home,
listening to the men and women and children talk in their own houses,
maybe the marketplace down the road.
these were real people,
these places that JC and Paul mentioned were real and had very real connotations relating to everyday life.

imagine if we were writing these stories right now.
the Spirit of God that was in these people, in Paul, in John, in Mark and Luke,
it's in us too.

Can't that Spirit give us wisdom in translation?

I don't know.

Words are good.

Words help us learn and grow.

But sometimes it seems like words hinder, especially when we hold onto them, and depend on them alone to save our souls.